Lately

I've had so many ideas in my head that it get's so overwhelming I just end up doing...nothing. I told myself that I was going to start doing more with my creative side when the new year started. I've neglected that completley. I spend all my money on shoes and clothes. It's absolutely ridiculous, really. I can't even fit anything else into my closet but that's besides the point. I just don't know where that drive comes from. Why don't I have it? I have the dream and the ideas but I just don't put them to use. Fuck...